lexi's screwtape letters: June 2007
there is a severe deficiancy of honesty in our world.
if you (or someone you know) is sad all of the time, they're either;
A. too stupid to see what is around them, or B. lying.
if you (or someone you know) is happy all of the time, they're either;
A. too stupid to see what is around them, or B. lying.
i'd like to believe that i am honest enough to evade the aforementioned tragic flaws.
and with this website, i plead my case.
click on the frequency knobs, and stuff from the brain of yours truly will appear.
click on the bottom knob, and stuff about yours truly shows up. (and please, spare me the "boob tube" jokes.)
Friday, June 01, 2007
kids...don't ever let anyone tell you life gets better after graduation. it just gets different. not worse, not better....just another variety of strange.
i'm going back to c-ville in a week.
and i've never felt as releaved to say that as i am when i say it now.
jaime says i'm a shmuck. i say, he stole that word from me and he never would have thought to use it except for the fact that he embodies it.
i love that boy.
things that prove my shmuckiness?
a. i didnt go to africa.
b. or mexico.
c. or europe.
d. i am in fact, a townie.
and what atones for jaime's own love of his PARENT'S home?
a. a trip to europe, that only happened because he over does everything...so when he gets pissed at his girlfriend and needs to pout...he country hops.
i think that if i stayed in kansas city and pined for him all summer...i would actually be a shmuck.
i cannot wait to get home.
the little couch misses me.
as does the walk in closet and the blue ball, but that's beside the point.
i miss first baptist...and all of the disfunction therein.
i miss worship with adam and steve.
i miss ashley...i miss EVERYTHING about ashley. our late night rants, our sporadic obsessions with eachother that result in spending four or five consecutive days of hanging out, sleeping, hanging out, and sleeping...followed by two weeks of fights and bitchiness because we're sick of eachother. i miss getting ready for church at her house, and fighting over the mirror. i miss sharing a beanbag chair at youthgroup, and paintball masks at tim's house. i miss breakfast with jerry pace. i think i even miss the gap in ashley's teeth. i. miss. ashley.
i cannot WAIT for the ots reunion...and i am speaking about the worship band...not the act.
we are gonna rock first baptist so hard, Liberty might just do the fox trot. and again...i am speaking about the WORSHIP BAND. sickos. ha...FOX trot...i didn't even mean to do that. shut up tim, we all know you wanna bone liberty.
i cannot WAIT for a true girls' night that includes britt, ash, 'lis, abbo, steph, and kris.
i cannot WAIT for a true old fashioned sunday...one that includes poker, halo, fantasy baseball, worship practice, naps in the scrunched pace basement, and movies that noone will actually watch.
i cannot WAIT to drink a cup of sacred grounds antigua.
i cannot WAIT to not have to think about it anymore.
i cannot WAIT to go home.
dirty, suffocating, small minded...collinsville.
home.
alexis
11:32 PM
tidbits
i'm a fan of capatalism, and therefore a super fan of al greenspan.
i dig it when boys teach me things.
the worst song i've ever heard is anything by clay aiken.
i once met george hamilton. google him.
i'm generally wrong.
i generally assume that people know when i'm lonely.
i enjoy solidarity...until solidarity crosses over into lonliness.
i'm a slave for anything c.s. lewis has (had?) to say.
steven colbert's whit. i need'nt say more.
i'm soooo trendy. i'm also a tool who pretends to be anti-trend.
i live for
the feel of a book in my hands.
higher power, and worship therein.
thinking.
the sound of my fingers tapping the keys.
the comforting emptiness of a blank notebook.
text messages.
money.
the english language.
multi-facited...ish-ness.
did i mention the english language?
questions.
a sideways glance, an outstretched arm behind the passenger side seat, and fingers brushing the ends of my hair.
the unattainable five year headache.
is it just me...?
...or can you tell how someone feels about you by the way your name sounds as they say it?
...or does oprah have two faces? (figuritivly? literally? you be the judge.)
...or can someone else sense that our generation is about to go beyond simply dropping the ball...but could possibly drop kick it into oblivion?
...or am i the only one that feels like i'll never beable to afford life?
...or are you too, annoyed with the fact that the faux-hawk is no longer kitschy and cool...i mean, paula abdul is sporting it regularly!
...or does it seem like your life won't be good until you lose twenty pounds and get an ipod?
...or is there someone out there who thinks that the re-vamped, new and improved version of christianity is totally commercial and lame? unless of course, we're talking about jon foreman.
...or...is it just me?
stuff that has changed my life.
aguagates, sweaty pillow cases, 100 pound crosses, "taxi" rides, jet skis, merengue, and fresh milk.
acoustic guitars.
the lost generation.
apolegetics.
religious dogma.
summer.
suvs.
winter.
a prairie home companion.
sisterhood of the traveling jacket...sort of.
rooftops.
the critical thinking corner.
the lincoln sign.
john mayer.
bertrand russel.
c.s. lewis.
fox news.
igby goes down.
online poker.
gracie and chandler.
xanga.
fold out couches.
sunfires.
planned parenthood.
composition notebooks.
stuff to think about (for those of you who do so)
"As long as this deliberate refusal to understand things from above, even where such understanding is possible, continues, it is idle to talk of any final victory over materialism." -clive sinclair lewis.
"We live, in fact, in a world starved for solitude, silence, and private: and therefore starved for meditation and true friendship." -c.s. lewis.
"Be sure that the ins and outs of your individuality are no mystery to Him; and one day they will no longer be a mystery to you." -are you sensing a trend here?
"The rich get richer and the poor get — children." -fitzgerald (a liberal golden child) said so.
"I'm glad it's a girl. And I hope she'll be a fool- that's the best thing a girl can be in this world, a beautiful little fool." -Daisy Buchannan.
"Sookie: You call your mother "Mimi"?
Igby: "Heinous One" is a bit cumbersome.
[Sookie nods]
Igby: And Medea was taken." -igd.
"Igby: If heaven is such a wonderful place then how come being crucified is such a big fucking sacrifice?" -igd.
"D.H. Banes: I believe, umm, that certain people in life are meant to fall by the wayside; to serve as warnings to the rest of us; signs posts along the way.
Igby: To where?
D.H. Banes: Success." -igd.
"Freedom is never more than one generation away from extinction. We didn't pass it to our children in the bloodstream. It must be fought for, protected, and handed on for them to do the same, or one day we will spend our sunset years telling our children and our children's children what it was once like in the United States where men were free."
-Ronald Reagan.
"Entrepreneurs and their small enterprises are responsible for almost all the economic growth in the United States."
-Ronald Reagan.
"How do you tell a communist? Well, it's someone who reads Marx and Lenin. And how do you tell an anti-Communist? It's someone who understands Marx and Lenin."
-Ronald Reagan.
"There are no great limits to growth because there are no limits of human intelligence, imagination, and wonder."
-Ronald Reagan.